Some random, scattered thoughts that can only be drawn together based on a common source and boredom...

- Half of the population is prescribed some legal psychotropic medication to alter brain chemistry (to cure depression, ADHD/ADD, lethargy, etc.) but we create panic about cannabis and other recreational stimulants and depressants. Schools are aghast when one of their star pupils is found using speed but meanwhile the school counselor has ten recommendations written up for Addarall. Drugs are only good if they procure a profit for Shire Pharmaceuticals and her competitors, it seems.

- Politics encompasses everything, but I'm at a point in my life where I can only casually discuss my hopes, ideas, and expectations on a good day and in trusted company. I don't engage in debates; I don't really care, as a matter of fact. For someone who campaigned at the age of 18 for mayor it's really disheartening to see myself become jaded with the process. I don't vote. I don't watch the news. I don't talk to people about their personal beliefs. I'm too tired of it all. I can only write out my thoughts and just shrug my shoulders.

- I often fear that one day in the future I'm going to be fired from my teaching position because of my unorthodox approach to education...

- I'm an atheist. You're probably not. That's cool. I don't care. My life's purpose is not to get others to think like me but to instead inspire others to think for themselves. Refer back to my previous statement about unorthodox teaching styles. We're taught at a young age that there's a "right" answer and all that matters is knowing "what's right" - not how to get there, or the significance of this answer, or even if you should still question yourself.

- I love music. I also love books. Does that make me cool or a geek? A cool geek?

- I'm a hedonist. I love simple pleasures like food, romance, socialization, reading, alcohol, sex, and leisure but I realize that a solid career, strong ethical commitment to others, and careful foresight are necessary for the preservation of these pleasures. I don't steal; I've never cheated on a partner; I've never left someone suffering from alcohol poisoning in the bathroom to suffer through it alone.

- At the same time I'm not perfect and I often get upset with myself when my personal concerns are raised above the needs of others. I drive past most broken-down cars and hate myself for it.

- Ambivert: the middle-position between extrovert and introvert. I am comfortable wearing this new vocabulary word, even if it sounds a little strange.

- I want to be a teacher. I want to be a musician. I want to be an author. I want to be a cosmonaut. I want to build my own house. I want to design a beautiful monument. In other words, I want to experience all outlets of life, damn it.

- I like people who dive right into situations in pursuit of fun. I also like people who are more contemplative about their actions. I can't stand, however, when people are critical of different personality types.

- The science behind romance - how our bodies' chemistry actually adjusts to be "in tune" with another person (similar to how women in close proximity share a menstrual cycle, but much more daring) - I think is more romantic than any spiritual or cartoon-inspired romance.

- Biggest fear: Losing the people I love to time, illness, and tragedies.

- Ideal last minutes of life: afloat in space above the Earth's atmosphere.