It's weird how someone can break down in front of you and like some sage you understand everything they are saying but are helpless when they beg for you to erase the pain.

It's worse when that same person is one of your best friends and she has put herself through a fountain of misery to restore some semblance of what she once had. I learned the hard way that certain people don't really know what it is to love - at least at the moment - and if you try to restore the past your futures just become further apart. It's hard loving someone who doesn't know that there's serious issues with themselves and when the walls crumble they will do their best to make you a villain and hold you to standards that they themselves cannot fulfill. It does not make them bad people; they're just emotionally immature.

I feel for you. You're probably a closer friend than even Chazz on some occasions, and I love you, and I want to heal you. I've been through this shit. It'll get better. But how do I tell you to cut off contact and let him hate you?